Finding Free: The Atlanta Freedom Bands and Coming Full Circle
When I was in fifth grade at Littleville Elementary School, something magical happened. One day, our teacher announced that the band teacher from the nearby high school would be coming to Littleville to talk to kids and their parents about joining the band. It was 1973, and resources for extra-curricular activities--heck, resources for curricular activities--were limited. I remember in previous years, our musical exposure at school had been the on the rare occasions when our teachers had brought out a box with mostly percussion instruments and let us play with them, mostly trying to keep time while a record was playing. This was different. This was band. I could hardly wait for the meeting. When the evening came, the band director, Mr. Wright, brought a variety of instruments so that we could try them out and, with his advise make our selection. I realize looking back that, of course, he wanted a well rounded group of instruments, which is probably why I became a flute player. From that point on, I was in love.
I went to high school in a football town, and a football town doesn't scrimp on its band. We were the Marching 100. I remember the day I was issued my uniform. I remember band camp and big, chartered band buses, chocolate sales and Homecoming parades. I can still remember how to play The Horse--if you have ever marched, you know The Horse. I remember our signature parade song--a marching mix of China Grove and Smoke on the Water. I still remember--and feel--lining up on the sideline for the halftime show, and I can feel again what it felt like then standing on the field, horn up, knees slightly bent, leaning back to hold the last note until the crowd stood and cheered. And they did. Every time.
I quit the band just before my senior year for a very, very bad reason. It's a story for another time, because this one is about joy. But I must say--for the rest of it to make sense--that over the next thirty years I had recurring dreams about being back. Sometimes, they would let me join them again for just one performance. Sometimes, in my dream, it was entirely acceptable for an alum to join up years later. Whatever the scenario, I slept happy. Then woke. It was not unlike dreaming of someone who has passed then waking to sadness when you realize it was only a dream.
I went to high school in a football town, and a football town doesn't scrimp on its band. We were the Marching 100. I remember the day I was issued my uniform. I remember band camp and big, chartered band buses, chocolate sales and Homecoming parades. I can still remember how to play The Horse--if you have ever marched, you know The Horse. I remember our signature parade song--a marching mix of China Grove and Smoke on the Water. I still remember--and feel--lining up on the sideline for the halftime show, and I can feel again what it felt like then standing on the field, horn up, knees slightly bent, leaning back to hold the last note until the crowd stood and cheered. And they did. Every time.
I quit the band just before my senior year for a very, very bad reason. It's a story for another time, because this one is about joy. But I must say--for the rest of it to make sense--that over the next thirty years I had recurring dreams about being back. Sometimes, they would let me join them again for just one performance. Sometimes, in my dream, it was entirely acceptable for an alum to join up years later. Whatever the scenario, I slept happy. Then woke. It was not unlike dreaming of someone who has passed then waking to sadness when you realize it was only a dream.
So when I say how happy I am to find the Atlanta Freedom Bands and to sign up to march with them, you get some idea of how much it means to me. I'll write more about it later no doubt, but this post was prompted by a conversation I had with my new band friend Mitchell. He mentioned that during the recruitment drive at Pride this year, one new member was telling him that finding the AFB was like coming home again--a feeling not unlike ones I have been having. I bet I'm not the only one, either, or that new fellow. I bet a lot of band members feel like this is both a musical and community home. I bet a lot of us thought we might not ever have that kind of home again. Of course it's also a helluva fun group that throws a mean party. Robert Frost wrote, "Home is the place that when you have to go there, they have to take you in." I know the "Freedom" in Atlanta Freedom Bands has rich, multiple meanings, but certainly for me--and I bet for others--it is a home place that sets me free. I am awfully glad they have taken me in.
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